Three major incidents happened to me and the people that I love, since my last entry in July. Okay I gotta put this in sequential order so you can get what I'm talking about;
Aug 27 - 31: First, my bf and I went to Bali to celebrate our first anniversary of dating! (Wow, we've been going out for a year now =D) I was so excited because twas my first time to Bali and I really, really wanted to go to Bali yayy!
Sept 4: Secondly, just few days after we got back from our Bali trip, I received a very, very devastating news from home, my uncle; my mom's youngest brother was admitted into the ICU. It was not longer than 24 hours after that, I got another call teling me that my uncle is gone. Gone. I didn't get to say goodbye to him. In fact, none of our family members back home did too. Everything happened too fast...
Sept 8: Thirdly, remember when I mentioned in my few posts ago about my bf joined a reality show called DiGi The Next Level? Where he had to be away for five-week shoot? Well, guess what? He won the competition! =D
There you go. Back to back of extreme joy and sadness. I didn't know what to feel at first or rather how to manage my feelings. I was exhilarated at one point but at another end, I just felt like locking up myself in the bedroom and cry my heart out because of the loss :'(
But I survived. Survived the emotional rollercoaster ride. A short yet long enough for me to learn a thing or two about life. A thing or two about life that would make me stronger to face another ride (who knows).
So what I learned is that; one needs to embrace unavoidable sorrow in order to understand (or appreciate) what true happiness means. It's the same thing with; one has to go through hardship before he/she could enjoy the harvest. Perhaps, this is the only way we can really appreciate life.
And no one ever say that life's going to be all rosy all the way. But hey, it's not going to be all gloomy all the way too. So, I believe the only thing to do is to live.
There is a common belief that growth requires suffering. One of the greatest causes of suffering is attachment. The more easily we can let go of the old and embrace the new, the more we can grow through joy rather than struggle.
- Sanaya Roman
***My uncle left us on Sept 5, 2010. Hemorrhagic dengue. RIP uncle::
